In the Wake of My Resignation From the Intelligence Community

“I will proclaim Your name to my brothers,
In the midst of the assembly, I will sing Your praise.”
---Hebrews 2:12

After thirty-four years of service, I officially resigned my commission as a Major Lieutenant officer in Great Britain’s GCHQ in August of 2022. During the first twenty years of my career, I conducted covert combat operations on American soil on behalf of the British Crown. After my combat license was decommissioned, I engaged with the American CIA on a series of Black Ops campaigns up until the time I resigned.
 
In October of last year, I publicly announced my resignation both in a published article and on social media. In the article, I discussed details of my involvement and recruitment with the GCHQ and the CIA, shared testimony of my acceptance of Christ into my life, His subsequent grace, and revealed the reasons I had decided to resign my commission. The feedback I have received after opening up about my involvement in the intelligence community and sharing my testimony was not what I  expected.
 
Since the article was first published, a handful of acquaintances have reached out to me and expressed admiration of my testimony. That said, several acquaintances have expressed a degree of envy or admiration over my activities. In doing so, they seem to have missed the entire point of my testimony.
 
The point I was making with the article is that I sold my life away when I took my oath of service. For starters, my corporate positions and my consulting gigs were a front for espionage. While I may have made some contributions to achieving the goals of my employers, my mind was often elsewhere. I lied, cheated, and stole to a degree with regularity. The dual life I led took enormous tolls on me both mentally and spiritually.
 
Worse still, violation of the Sixth Commandment was a prerequisite for the career path I chose. Film and television make a habit of glorifying the type of activities I was involved in without touching on the moral and ethical consequences for the individual. I took no joy in my combat missions and terminated my targets with extreme prejudice. In effect, I was trained to become a psychopath.
 
Because of the nature of my work, I was incapable of maintaining lasting and meaningful relationships. To protect my loved ones, I had to lie about my work and related activities. Sex and alcohol became a means of escape, and the both nearly overtook me. I lived an empty shell of an existence, and the lifestyle nearly killed me.
 
I hope the men who have reached out to me and admire my activities will take a step back and give thanks that they never had to engage in this line of work. As I said, signing my life away to perform espionage nearly killed me. Aside for the combat operations I was involved in, I survived two attempts on my life during the later years of my career. The first placed me in a medically induced coma.
 
That attempt occurred only months after I had surrendered my care and will to Christ. During the coma, I journeyed to the gates of hades and spent two-and-a-half weeks in agonizing torture. Christ himself released me from the bondage of that torture and returned me to life. It was a harrowing experience.
 
Aside from the misguided acquaintances I have mentioned here, I have also been harassed by a couple of men who believe I am a freelance gun for hire. In fact, I have been approached by junior members of known criminal organizations and asked to lend them my services. Inexplicably, they do not seem to comprehend the word “no.”
 
Moving forward has meant turning my back on my old ways. I have had to renounce every contact with Satan and his servants, with secret societies and with anything in Satan’s territory. For example, I am aware that my CIA dossier was leaked by a high-profile former White House official to Hollywood screenwriters and that a motion picture with a character based on my life is in the works. These are the type of things I am having to renounce.
 
My prayers are with the misguided souls that believe my espionage activities were noble or glamorous and worthy of retelling. As I said, I nearly forsook my soul for the false idols of king and county, nation, and flag. Christ warns that narrow is the pathway to heaven and eternal peace. I have experienced enough of the horrors of war to know that consciously deviating from His path is a fool’s errand.
 
Here is a link to the article I published last October: https://www.chirho.consulting/blog/coming-clean-and-resigning-my-commission-with-the-gchq
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Author: Erik Gagnon - Chi Rho Consulting