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The Myth of Marriage

9/11/2023

“Jesus said to them, “The sons of this age marry and the women are given in marriage, but those who are considered worthy to attain to that age and the resurrection from the dead, neither marry nor are given in marriage; for they cannot even die anymore, for they are like angels, and are sons of God, being sons of the resurrection.”
---Luke 20:34-36

One of the greatest betrayals of Christ by organized religions is the institution of marriage. So much so, that the institution of marriage is mistakenly misconstrued with betrothal. Whereas marriage involves an oath and a witnessed ceremony, betrothal simply involves a promise. That promise is an assurance that the betrothed will be faithful to one another and remain true to Christ’s commands.

EARLY FORMS OF MARRIAGE
Marriages were originally conceived of before the flood. (Matthew 24:38) The arrangements conveyed a partnership and involved blood sacrifices. These arrangements were made between two men.

These men strayed from Christ’s teachings and coveted the beasts of the earth. They worked together to enslave these beasts and treated them without care. They used these beasts to carve out earthly dominions and created want and envy amongst their brethren.

These same men then turned their attention toward the wiifs and daughters of their brethren. They began to murder men whose wiifs and daughters they coveted and then subjugated the women for adultery. Through force, they also subjugated men who had had innovative ideas to improve living conditions. This subjugation was the first form of slavery.

The institution of marriage was renewed within Egypt after the flood. This time however, the institution involved men and women. Rival factions bonded with one another through marriage ceremonies and solidified their ties with blood oaths and animal sacrifices. Polygamy was common, especially within families of nobility, and the purpose of these marriages was to perpetuate the bloodline.

After David’s death in 10,000BC, the practice spread into Europe and Asia. Three thousand years later, Roman nobility extended the practice to include doweries. Families with prized women were offered gold, silver, livestock, and produce in exchange for marriage rights. That said, Roman law stipulated that a man could only have one spouse and that those partnerships were bonded unto death.

Roman law did not discourage promiscuity. It was commonplace for men of nobility to have concubines and for women of ranked nobility to hold eunuchs. Pedophilia also occurred frequently, especially within the Roman legions. Roman soldiers often raped and sodomized children that had captured in battle. This practice caught on with Roman Senate and families of ranked nobility and remained in effect through the fall of the Roman Empire.

ROMAN MARRIAGES
The Roman Catholic Church was commissioned by Emperor Nero in 54AD, and the institution of marriage was integrated into their rituals. The dowery concept accompanied the ritual, and the ritual spread throughout Europe. Men and women were originally consecrated in marriage in the name Saints or patrons of the church. This violated Christ’s teachings about vows and oaths and subordinated the men and women bound in marriage to the will of man rather than Christ’s will.

These ceremonies evolved over time, and vows to the demon known as God were integrated into the consecration rituals. God happens to be the self-given name of a demon that took form after the flood, and he reigned over Europe throughout Ancient Rome.

Over time, these vows completely replaced vows made in the names of saints or wealthy patrons of the church. Between 48AD and 54AD, Roman Centurions had rewritten holy manuscripts and replaced references to Christ with the word God. This desecrated Christ’s teachings on the subject of vows and oaths made in the temple. (Matthew 23:21)

During the 5th Century AD, a secret society spread from Rome throughout Europe that would become known as the Jesuits (pronounced Jeez-u-it). They built monasteries, and the institutions were structured much like the partnerships that formed before the flood. That said, these partnerships included five or seven fallen men.

Roman Centurions chartered the monasteries and operated them much like businesses. That said, the activities that occurred within the monasteries’ walls resembled the goings on within Sodom and Gomorrah before the cities were laid to waist by Christ.

During the 11th Century AD, Pope Gelasius II (ne Giovanni Caetani) commissioned the founding of Benedictine monasteries. These monasteries were founded by former slaves to the Holy Roman Empire that had allowed themselves to be sodomized by Papal authorities for their freedom. In exchange, they were bonded to one another for all eternity.

Jesuit nunneries followed shortly the establishment of Benedictine monestaries. Originally designed as orphanages, they were rewarded to Papal concubines that had remained faithful in service. The orphanages were known for their cruelty and became dens of inequity. To survive, many of the orphans made blood pacts with one another. In effect, they were the first prisons. Cosa Nostra was in fact birthed through these orphanages. That organization still serves the Roman Catholic Church to this day.

THE ANGLICAN INFLUENCE
The Church of England mirrored the Vatican’s practice Benedictine monasteries and Jesuit nunneries. Angelicin monasteries were first commissioned by British lords shortly after the death of King Rhys ap Tewdwr in 1093AD. Like their Benedictine counterparts, Anglican monks released from bondage after agreeing to sodomize their bonded captors. These monasteries were also commissioned in pairs.

Anglican nunneries were run by educated peasant women that pledged fealty to the Ladies of British royal houses, and Anglican orphanages were separated by sex. The male-run orphanages became bastions for thievery and the female-run orphanages became training grounds for courtesans.

Young maidens trained as concubines to serve the pleasures of the King, his court, and the royal family. These women married themselves into servitude with the British Empire, and the practice caught on throughout Europe during the Protestant Reform. As with the Roman Republic and the Roman Empire, polygamy quickly spread through these circles and homosexuality became common practice.

MODERN MARRIAGE
At the behest of eight family networks that control global financial markets, the Roman Catholic Church, the Church of England, Protestantism, and the The Jesus Christ Church of Later-day Saints.. have all pushed the institution of marriage and procreation. This despite Christ’s teachings on the subject. (Luke 20:24-40) In effect, children have been trained to believe that they are married into their family and that they are obligated to further the ambitions of their family.

Through books, media and other forms of entertainment, the concepts of natural love and fidelity have been perverted to conform with the interests of these eight family networks. Their roots of these eight families trace back to Roman nobility, and all eight are Satanic. All eight buy into the belief of Manifest Destiny and the notion that Christ will be killed.

When he was imprisoned by Roman Centurions on the Isle of Majorica (ne Corcica), the Apostle Paul wrote “I say to the unmarried and to widows that it is good for them if they remain even as I. But if they do not have self-control, let them marry; for it is better to marry than to burn with passion.” (1 Corinthians 7:8-9) Outside natural love, the feeling of passion he describes are artificial. They are a violation of the Tenth Commandment and a warning sign that Satan has you in his sights. (Exodus 20:17)

The concept of love is eternal, and covenants made until death have been bonds of slavery for most couples. Shackled together they have been taught to forage for creature comforts and forgo Christ’s teachings. His message was to go forward and make disciples of all and to enjoy the fruits we are given. Sadly, the churches that branched from Catholicism and Catholicism itself have refused to propagate this message. Instead, they have become the antithesis of everything He taught and have enabled idolators to create bonds of marriage that resemble the ones that existed before the flood.

“Jerusalem, Jerusalem, who kills the prophets and stones those who have been sent to her! How often I wanted to gather your children together, the way a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were unwilling. Behold, your house is being left to you desolate! For I say to you, from now on you will not see Me until you say, ‘Blessed is the One who comes in the name of the Lord!’”
---Matthew 23:37-39

CHRIST RETURNITH. CHRIST TRANSLATES FROM BEAST TO YEAST.

Author: Erik Gagnon - Managing Partner, Chi Rho Consulting

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Christians In Name Only

9/8/2023

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“Anyone who goes too far and does not remain in the teaching of Christ, does not have the Holy Spirit; the one who remains in the teaching has both the Father and the Son. If anyone comes to you and does not bring this teaching, do not receive him into your house, and do not give him a greeting; for the one who gives him a greeting participates in his evil deeds.”
2 John 9-11

On Thanksgiving Day of 2018, Christ sounded an alarm. He trumpeted the Clarion Call and announced His return. He gave an audible signal to His faithful and His true that demons are advancing and that the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse were preparing to take wing. In a very real sense, Gabriel blew his horn.

Deep-space sonar stations around the world received this signal weeks later. The signal defied physics and baffled the world’s top scientists and astronomers. Reports of the signal were largely, and deliberately, ignored by the media and by political leaders. Idolators that long ago abandoned Christ’s teachings buried the story so as not to alarm the public and pressed forward with their unholy agendas as if nothing had happened. (Ezekiel 28:2-5)

Only a handful of religious leaders around the world mentioned this occurrence. This isn’t surprising really because most of the world’s major religions are tools of the state. Their mandates are to pacify men and women within their congregations and have them “render unto Caesar what is Caesar’s”. (Matthew 22:21) They enable a handful of wealthy and powerful families to act with impunity, and they look the other way as these families prepare for war.

A final global conflict has been over two hundred years in the making. It will pit four rival superpowers against one another in a battle for global hegemony. Eight family networks that effectively control the world’s financial networks are presently placing bets on the outcomes. So, too, are most of the world’s major religious denominations.

CHURCH AND STATE ARE INTERTWINED
Though not widely known, the British Crown controls the Church of England and largely dictates the direction of Sunni Muslim religion sects within Africa and the Middle East. The same is true for Hindu religious sects within India and Pakistan. Similarly, the United States Federal Reserve Board largely mandates the activities of the Jesus Christ Church of Later-day Saints. In fact, over eighty percent of the men within the Mormon archdiocese are presently board members within the United States Federal Reserve System.

In the East, Taoist religious sects largely serve as fiefdoms to the Political Bureau of the Central Committee of the Communist Party of China. These sects have played an active part in spreading Marxist propaganda throughout the West for years. The Chinese International Education Foundation’s state-run Confucius Institutes are the principal conduit for their anti-Christian propaganda campaigns.

Shiite Muslim sects also serve as fiefdoms to the Chinese Communist party. In fact, the Chinese government provides billions of dollars in aid to the nations of Iran and Pakistan every year. Similarly, Shiite militia groups like the Taliban are supplied with arms and munitions through China’s intelligence services. The Chinese government also channels heroin into the United States and other Western nations on behalf of these nations.

Unlike other major religious institutions, the Roman Catholic Church does not cater to the interests of a single nation-state. Instead, the Vatican and their Sacred College of Cardinals directly serve the interests of the eight family networks that control most of world’s banking interests and lending institutions. All eight family networks trace their lineage to Roman emperors, and the Church itself was commissioned by emperor Nero in the year 54AD.

There are thousands of faithful followers of Christ that profess themselves as Roman Catholics. That attend mass regularly and know Christ to be their savior. That said, the Church itself is guided by pagan practices and the Vatican itself has intentionally deceived faithful followers of Christ since the Church’s formation.

A labyrinth of caverns exists underneath the city of Rome, and this labyrinth contains a treasure trove of manuscripts and scriptural texts dating back to the time of David. (1 Samuel 16). These texts have never been revealed to the public and they contain a truer account of human history than what is believed to be true today. In fact, much of the lore of the Church’s founding has been fabricated to foster idolatry within the Church.

The belief that the Apostle Peter was the Roman Catholic Church’s first Pontiff happens to be a myth. Peter himself was murdered by Roman Centurions in the year 48AD. A Roman Centurion posed as the Apostle Peter after his death to deceive Roman peasantry. Christianity had spread like wildfire throughout the Western world following Christ’s crucifixion, and a handful of Centurions created the Catholic Church to bolster emperor Nero’s coffers. They effectively subjugated Europe’s peasantry over the next eleven centuries in the process.

Like the Roman Catholic Church, the Lutheran World Federation and most of the denominations that associate with it also do not cater to the interests of a single world power. That said, the wealthy families that comprise the nucleolus Bilderberg Group have compromised the Federation’s General Assembly over the past century. So much so in fact, that the Church’s teachings now closely resemble those of the Catholic Church.

It is not uncommon to attend Lutheran services on Sundays and hear their preachers espouse on the Bilderberg Group’ss salient talking points (e.g., man-made climate change and universal government). Similarly, the Lutheran Church as a whole has largely caved on matters pertaining to family, marriage and sexuality largely through the influence of the Bilderberg Group and other major donors.

DEEPLY HIDDEN SECRETS
Apart from the Lutheran Church, all the religious denominations mentioned above have one basic belief in common and that belief happens to be antithetical to Christ’s teachings. Specifically, they that ministers, clergy, clerics, or imams are necessary intermediaries between Christ and man. This is also true for Judaism, where rabbis or teachers are believed to have greater standing with Christ than their parishioners.

These religious denominations also fail to dispel the illusions of an afterlife, and some have gone to great lengths to conjure material images of heaven and hell. It is a little-known fact that the archdioceses of both The Jesus Christ Church of Later-day Saints and the Roman Catholic Church provide funding for most of Hollywood’s major film productions. Additionally, both hold interests in publishing houses and video games companies that regularly produce titles antithetical to Christ’s teachings.

Both Churches hide their involvement in these activities from the public and their parishioners. They use shell companies and holding accounts to mask their investments and then launder their money through other corporate holdings. For example, the Vatican presently owns nearly 48% of the Class A preferred stock holdings of the Walt Disney Company and the dividends are laundered mostly through fashion and design companies owned by the eight family banking networks they pay allegiance to. A portion of these dividends then make their way back to the church in the form of tax-exempt charitable donations.

There is a nefarious purpose behind these corporate holdings. The investments in entertainment, fashion, and design help the Churches and their banking interests distract people from Christ’s teachings and subordinate their interests to the interests of the ruling elite. In turn, most of the clergy within their ranks preach false or misleading teachings from the pulpit. What results are skewed priorities and misplaced fears amongst many of their parishioners.

FALSE TEACHINGS ABOUND
The Second Commandment emphatically states that we are forbidden from fostering graven images of heaven, the earth, or the celestial bodies. (Exodus 20:4) Since we are mortal beings, any imaginations of heaven or hell are expressly heretical. So, too, are utopian images of a perfect world. That said, few people refrain from creating such images in their minds.

Modern media and entertainment deserve much of the blame for this. Through film, television, books, and magazines we are constantly inundated with a barrage of utopian images. So much so in fact, that material wealth and unnecessary creature comforts have become societal ideals.

In the West, plenty of churches cater to and preach these ideals. Prosperity theology has become big business and the sermons preached within the churches that embrace this diatribe often resembles what you may find within self-help seminars. These churches are sometimes criticized for fostering forms of ideology and for the most part that’s exactly what they do. They set visions of utopia in the minds of worshippers and often create cults of personality around the pastors that preach the sermons.

Whether by rote or through their own selfish ambitions, many parents and grandparents perpetuate these same false teachings. These days, very few turn to scripture when they are confronted with esoteric or philosophical questions by their children or grandchildren. Ideas that families will be reunited in heaven are contradictory to Christ’s commands. Every man and woman must make their own decision to accept Christ into their heart for He is the only path to eternal life.

These days, few are willing to wash their hands of their children or grandchildren when their progeny violate Christ’s teachings. Instead, they pray as the gentiles often do, begging or pleading for their children’s mercy as if they were before a royal court. It is little wonder that society has decayed beyond repair since many who profess to be Christian have forgotten His most basic teachings.

If you look around objectively, you will find that the predictions for the future Christ foreshadowed during His sermon upon Mount Olive have largely come to fruition. (Matthew 24) For centuries, idolators have manipulated Christ’s commandments and taken His teachings out of context to further their own selfish ambitions. In essence their hearts are hardened like Pharaoh’s. However, unlike Pharaoh, they hardened their hearts when they surrendered themselves to Satan. (Exodus 4:21)

ALL THIS WAS NOT WITHOUT WARNING
Christ warns that the days ahead will offer an “Abomination of Desolation”. (Matthew 24:15). He reveals that men and women that have surrendered themselves to demons will attempt to deceive His faithful about His arrival: “Then if anyone says to you, ‘Behold, here is the Christ,’ or ‘He is over here,’ do not believe him.” (Matthew 24:23) He also warned that sons and second sons of Israel will suffer through tribulations unlike any before.

Many of these tribulations will come through friends, family, and loved ones. As Christ reveals, “brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; and children will rise up against parents and cause them to be put to death.” (Matthew 10:21-22). True sons and second sons of Israel will be hated by men and women who succumbed to God, Satan, Lucifer, the Whore with Seven Heads and Ten Horns or their lesser demons. They shall covet us and attempt to drag us down with them.

The same is true for many of the elders of the churches listed above. Their archdioceses and councils have already made unholy alliances with the four world powers that will contest for global hegemony within the next decade and the banking interests that support them. As Christ reveals, “Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; leave Me, you who practice lawlessness.’” (Matthew 7:22-24)

In the days ahead, it is imperative that men and women of faith distance themselves from the elder councils of these churches and find refuge in scripture. The law is written on our hearts and the truth is always revealed to us in scripture. (Jeremiah 31:33) Similarly, we must renew our commitment to prayer and ask Christ for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry out His will. Through earnest prayer and unhindered meditation, He will reveal our true direction in the trying times ahead.

“Therefore, whoever nullifies one of the least of these commandments, and teaches others to do the same, shall be called least in the kingdom of heaven; but whoever keeps and teaches them, he shall be called great in the kingdom of heaven. For I say to you that unless your righteousness far surpasses that of the scribes and Pharisees, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.”
---Matthew 5:19-20

CHRIST RETURNITH. CHRIST TRANSLATES FROM BEAST TO YEAST.

Author: Erik Gagnon - Managing Partner, Chi Rho Consulting

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Thoughts on Monogamy and Celibacy from a Former Espionage Agent

8/30/2023

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“Or what woman, if she has ten silver coins and loses one coin, does not light a lamp and sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? And when she has found it, she calls together her friends and neighbors, saying, ‘Rejoice with me, because I have found the coin which I had lost!’ In the same way, I tell you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of Christ over one sinner who repents.”
---Luke 15:8-10

I was raised in an abusive household, and that fact had a lot to do with my recruitment by the British Crown’s foreign intelligence service. It is a little-known fact that the GCHQ actively recruits naive and willing agents from their former colonies through the Masonic Order and that’s what happened to me. I was willing to die for king and country and nation and flag, and the GCHQ exploited the abuse I’d suffered to further the interests of the Crown. Later in my career, the CIA did much the same.

I spent thirty-three plus years as a field officer for the GCHQ, the first twenty as a commissioned combat officer and the last thirteen-plus as a deep-cover Major Lieutenant., During that time, I forsook meaningful relationships for the sake of my missions and nearly died a hundred times over. It was a lonely, grueling lifestyle.

THE HOUSEHOLD IN WHICH I GREW UP
The man who raised me is and was a sodomite in a scriptural sense, and so are many members of extended family. That man sexually abused me; and he was routinely abused my mother. Members of my extended family did much the same, and their depravity shaped my values and belief system from an early age. Nearly all of them are still alive.

The man who raised me has a snap temper and he frequently abused my mother. Some of my earliest memories include witnessing that man routinely exploit her good nature, watching him violate her body against her will, and listening to him verbally abuse her unrelentingly. Somewhere around the age of four, I decided I had had enough and made it a point to defend my mother. From that point on, I bore the brunt of his verbal abuse and his physical threats.

The man who raised me is not my biological father. The DNA does not match, and my mother is not aware of this fact. She is an alcoholic and was raped multiple times before my birth by family members whilst she was in a stupor: twice by a brother-in-law and once by a sister-in-law. Through Christ’s grace, my mother has no recollection of the rapes she experienced at the hands of her in-laws. That said, other family members knew about the rape incidents and they have never come clean with her.

My mother’s marriage to this man was loosely arranged by her stepfather. He, too, had abused her verbally, and he persuaded my mother that she could do no better than this man. This occurred after her stepfather convinced her to steer clear of the man of her life, the son of a wealthy car dealer from Wheaton, Illinois that went by the name Walter.

My mother has a brilliant mind and was an incredibly beautiful young woman. The type of woman that turned heads on the street. Her stepfather introduced her to alcohol in the form of Gin at the age of fifteen and would play mind games with my mother after he had given her a couple of drinks.

The man who raised me repeated this same pattern with my mother. He would feed my mother alcohol on the weekends when he was home to sedate her. He would then tell my mother grandiose plans for their future when the effects of the alcohol began to set in. This man continued to do so until my mother’s health began to fail a couple years back. From a psychological perspective, he is what you would call an enabler and would also be categorized as a sociopath.

The man who raised me is cowardly. Like any sociopath, he would take advantage of me in leveraged situations. For example, he would verbally berate me and attempt to humiliate me in public. This was especially true during my adolescence and early teen years.

This man would mock me for what he considered my shortcomings and attempt to instill insecurities as he had with my mother. That said, I didn’t roll over. I would often push back until his rage nearly boiled over and physical confrontation occurred. To quell these occurrences, I learned to lie at an early age and told him exactly what he wanted to hear simply to placate his ego.

During my infancy, the man who raised me sexually abused me multiple times on the weekends when my mother ran errands. He would drink beer, turn on the television, and set me in his lap. When I began to fall asleep, he would tug at my genitals, and I would begin to cry. I can remember his merciless repetition of this act and his laughter as I lay there helpless. He knew what he was doing, and he derived perverse pleasure from the torture he inflicted.

The man who raised me often physically harassed my mother in the kitchen. He would assert his physical dominance over her and grope her in unwelcoming ways. My mother would fight him off and often wind up in tears. When this occurred, the man who raised me would let out the same type laugh.

Around the age of four, I reached a breaking point and decided to become my mother’s protector. When the temper of the man who raised me became heated, I would distract his attention away from my mother. He liked to watch the news during dinner and opine on the events of the day. I would counter his points with points of my own and continue a tit for tat until he told me to shut my mouth. That was generally enough to keep him from harming my mother.

Even though I did not receive a catechism or religious training, Christ’s commands were written on my heart. Therefore, I did my best to refrain from physical confrontations with the man who raised me and I also refrained from name calling. That said, when the man who raised me verbally abused my mother away from the dinner table, I would often step in to defend her.

His verbal abuse of the two of us was commonplace when he was in town, and I made a point to steer clear of him the best I could. Starting around the age of eight, I began to spend a lot of time on the streets and was frequently taken in by neighbors for supper. I learned to hustle and barter for money and told lies about the situation at home mostly to protect my mother from the wrath of the man who raised me other than anything else.

MY EXTENDED FAMILY
The man who raised me was not the only member of my family that molested me. One of his younger sisters also violated me during my infancy and two of my cousins violated me during my adolescence. Like most children, I swept the traumatic experiences to the back of my mind after they occurred. I did not begin to reflect upon these incidents until years later.

My aunt molested me the day of my Christening. While placing a gift upon my crib, she bent down, kissed me on the lips and slipped her tongue into my mouth. I was halfway asleep when this occurred, and I began screaming. My mother had to console me for over an hour afterward.

At the age of four my mother and I went to visit my grandmother and her stepfather. A cousin of mine happened to also be visiting them at the time. She was eleven years older than me blossoming into her sexuality, and she proceeded to molest me during the visit.

One evening before bed, she entered the guest room, approached me, and kissed me directly on the lips. I turned flush and my heart raced. Afterward, she smiled seductively ad then exit the room while keeping eye contact with me. A couple of minutes later, she returned to the guest room and kissed me a second time with more exuberance. That second kiss left me feeling numb.

She wasn’t the only cousin of mine that molested me. A year later, a paternal cousin seven years my elder gave me a long, passionate kiss in front of her brother with whom I was close. She then told me to sit by her and held my hand in a sensual manner. That kiss and her affectionate gestures were designed to make her brother jealous, and they did.

My male cousin told our parents about what had occurred and the man who raised me berated me in front of the family. Afterward, my aunt and uncle led my cousins out of the house and my male cousin held his head down in shame. I learned years later that he held some sort of romantic feelings of his own for me at the time.

I didn’t think much about these incidents until years later, but each had a profound influence on my sex life. There was no romantic affection demonstrated within the house I grew up in, and my ideas of romance mostly stemmed from literature and film. Having witnessed the abuse my mother routinely suffered, love and romance became heavenly ideals for me and the moments of physical intimacy I experienced with my girlfriends were cherished.

I began to seek close relationships with women early on in life and longed to find a soulmate. At the age of fifteen, I began a romantic relationship with the daughter of a Cosa Nostra captain and fell in love with her, but it was never meant to be. She, too, came from an abusive household and it was a volatile relationship. I learned years later that her father had kept her from her true soulmate for business purposes.

The man who raised me worked with a mid-level British Freemason who gathered intelligence on the organization’s behalf. He was aware of the violent disposition the man who raised me possessed, and he was also told about my above average intelligence. Additionally, the man who raised me shared details of my mother’s family’s escape from Fascist oppression and Soviet occupation in Latvia during World War II with this man.

In turn, the GCHQ was made aware of these details by his superiors. and they began to monitor my activities when I first entered grammar school. By the time they reached out to me during my senior year of high school, they had assembled a comprehensive psychological profile. The GCHQ was aware of my makeup, and they exploited my vulnerabilities. In was coached to forego my natural instincts and encourage to become promiscuous to achieve my mission tasks.

ACTING AGAINST CHRIST’S COMMANDS
The GCHQ helped place me into Princeton University on an emersion assignment and also to groom me for future assignments. The university has long been a bastion for the children of Cosa Nostra bosses and underbosses, and my drinking behavior fit in with their crowd. For the duration of my education, not only did I socialize with these people, I also assisted in collecting profile assessments on them for future use.

During my time at Princeton, I targeted women that had been involved with the children of Cosa Nostra bosses or underbosses for romantic relationships. I also had a handful of sexual encounters with their daughters as well as their mistresses. Although these relationships and sexual encounters helped me achieve my assigned objectives, my promiscuity left me feeling empty inside. Simply put, I was unable to develop healthy relationships with due to my oath of service.

After I graduated from Princeton, I spent a brief period in Northern Virginia where I completed advanced combat training and field awareness training. Afterward, I was place on assignment in Kansas City, Kansas. There, I monitored the movement of money in and out of the area and made a sketch of Cosa Nosta’s base of operations for the GCHQ. Whilst on assignment there, I met a woman and fell in love for the second time. That relationship also was never meant to be.

The Woman I met in Kansas City had had a daughter from a previous relationship. I developed a bond of intimacy with this woman I had never experienced before and looked upon her daughter as my own. That said, I was never able to give myself to them wholly and completely due to the nature of my assignments.

Three years into the relationship, I took an honest look at myself and realized that I that the risks of remaining in the relationship were too great. I could not be honest with them about the nature of my work, and I was unwilling to place their lives at risk. I also had chemical dependency issues and realized full well that I would be a poor male role model for her daughter. In short, I loved them both dearly and ended the relationship for their wellbeing.

Afterward, I engaged in a couple of casual flings and then jumped into a relationship with a woman who distantly reminded me of the woman I had loved. Like the woman I loved, this woman had an outgoing personality. She also happened to have a similar hair color. With little thought, I asked this woman to marry me and she said yes. That relationship turned out to be an unmitigated disaster.

At heart, I knew the relationship was doomed from the start. Most telling was an incident that occurred shortly after we became engaged. I happened to be on a restricted diet, and the woman I was about to marry made dinner for me one night. The meal didn’t accommodate my restricted diet, and I kindly had to pass.

After I said "no, thank you" and explained why I was unable to eat what she had prepared, my fiancée flew into a rage and threw a full serving plate directly at my head. I dodged the plate and it smashed into the wall of her kitchen. As she continued to curse me out, I I heard a gentle man’s voice outside myself speak to me. That voce said one word emphatically: “run!”

In the years since that incident occurred, I have come to realize that the Holy Spirit spoke to me that day. Instead of heeding His warning, I ignored the voice and proceeded ahead with the wedding. Nevertheless, my fiancée’s reaction that night was indicative of what I routinely experienced during the four-plus years we were together. She was unfaithful and abusive throughout the relationship, and it is only through Christ’s grace that I escaped the marriage.

After the divorce, I distanced myself from relationships and turned to pornography as a coping mechanism to deal with the loneliness of my existence. That said, I began a relationship with an older woman whom I’d met online shortly before completing my last assigned combat mission. That relationship also turned into a disaster.

Without going into much detail, I’ll simply say that this woman distracted me from my missions. She was a high maintenance woman and there little to no emotional intimacy. I broke up with her shortly before I completed the second of my assigned combat missions, and that decision was for my own good.

RETURNING TO THE FOLD
In April of 2013, I survived a planned assassination attempt. I was placed in a coma and spent nearly six months in the hospital recovering from my injuries. Afterward, I spent nearly two years in Colorado undergoing additional surgeries along with intensive physical therapy.

During that time, I was introduced to a woman my same age through my mother. That woman came from a powerful political family, and she was going through a divorce. We quickly hit it off. She happened to be a gentle and caring soul very much like mother and she had a keen wit. She also happened alcoholic.

I cannot say that I was good for this woman, nor that she was good for me. We began a physical relationship after her divorce was finalized, and her drinking became worse afterwards. Concerned for her health, I reached out to her sister and their childhood nanny for help. The woman’s illness became progressively worse, and I finally had to leave her for my own health and wellbeing.

I have been bothered by the fact that the two of us engaged in a physical relationship and I wound up leaving her. That said, I had yet to come to terms with my intelligence career nor the effects it had on my behavior. I was still deep under cover when I was involved with this woman and hadn’t reflected on the fact that I had used physical relationships as a crutch much like alcohol to cope with the stresses of my assignments.

In the time since I first accepted Christ into my heart, my feelings about monogamy and the sanctity of romantic relationships have only grown stronger. Thar t was shortly after I completed the last of my assigned combat missions for the GCHQ. In the time since, memories of the training and instruction I received have begun to come back. In retrospect, I can honestly say that I did not like the man I was trained to be: a remorseless killer and an adulterer.

I have been privileged to know a handful of strong and loving couples in my life, and I can honestly say that there is nothing more beautiful than a man and a woman who are wholly and fully devoted to Christ and to one another. Christ’s word and His teachings always remain true, and they resonated with me during the two brief periods I experienced true romantic intimacy in my life. Aside from the brief time in Kansas City, my career with the GCHQ was a shallow and isolating existence.

AN UNEXPECTED IRONY
I have been celibate for nearly a decade now and have been at peace with the decision. I can say unequivocally that some of the greatest times of my life have occurred in recent years during periods of quiet meditation and prayer. My alone time with Christ has afforded me periods of peace and serenity unlike any I have ever known. I wouldn’t trade those for the world.

The woman from Kansas City whom I had loved came to mind repeatedly during my meditation sessions in 2018, and I turned to Christ for guidance. She was always a woman of faith and memories of her devotion to Christ returned to my memory. Shortly afterward, I looked her up through Facebook and came to learn that she had married.

It was evident by what she posted on her Facebook page that she was miserable in her marriage. She was a brilliantly artistic woman, and her feed was dotted with pleas for help. Upon reviewing her feed, I once again turned to Christ for guidance. Through prayer and meditation, I was called to reach out to her directly and did so on Thanksgiving Day of 2018.

The same day I reached out to her, I learned that my first romantic partner from high school had taken her own life. I did some digging afterward and came to learn that she had been involved in an abusive marriage arranged through her father. I broke down and cried when I learned of this and then suppressed my desire to seek retribution.

Shortly after I first reached out to the woman from Kansas City, I wrote her a twenty-page letter and confessed to what she had meant to me. Prayer and meditation guided me through the letter. I spoke about my involvement with the GCHQ and the CIA, the attempt on my life, and the changes I had gone through since accepting Christ into my heart.

Afterward, I sent her a second letter and told her that I was aware that she was unhappy in her marriage. I then began to investigate the circumstances of her marriage. What I discovered disturbed me greatly. It was also somewhat ironic given the focus of my assignments with the GCHQ.

The marriage had been arranged by her eldest brother. That man had gone on to become a mid-level drug dealer within the suburbs of Kansas City after I broke up with this woman. So, too, had her two other brothers. Together, they ran a crystal meth distribution ring and paid fealty to Cosa Nostra. They were mid-level gangster at best, but they had dreams of expanding their distribution ring.

The man my former girlfriend had married came from a prominent Kansas City family that had made money in the agricultural business, and he had dreams of becoming a Mafioso of some sort. My former girlfriend’s brother thought he could exploit him, so he introduced that man to my former girlfriend. I learned that my former girlfriend’s eldest brother had bullied her into the marriage by basically telling her that it would be good for the family.

In turn, the man my former girlfriend married wound up selling agricultural secrets to the Chinese. The deal was arranged through my former girlfriend’s brother’s original drug suppliers.

The man my former girlfriend married also made routine business trips out to the West Coast and solicited call girls and hookers during these excursions. Worst of all, I learned that he was both physically and verbally abusive with my former girlfriend. This last fact left me seething with anger.

When I learned of the abuse, I refrained from retribution and turned to Christ. Through prayer and meditation, I was called to write a letter to my former girlfriend’s daughter. Within the letter, I outlined a portion of what I knew and urged my former girlfriend’s daughter to intercede on her mother’s behalf. I also conveyed that I had loved her as my own.

Not long after sending the letter, I learned that my former girlfriend was murdered by her husband. Shortly afterward, her daughter was also murdered. Both murders hit me heard, and the latter especially so. My former girlfriend’s daughter had been involved with a low-level solder that worked for her uncle. The entire family was whipped out in a gangland killing, and I happened to be familiar with the families behind the murder.

Rather than seek retribution for their murders, I stepped back and turned the matter over to Christ. It would have been easy for me to have taken the perpetrators out, but doing so would have corrupted my soul in the process. I am not the same man I was during my time with the GCHQ. Christ Himself rescued me from the gates of hell and I have no intention of ever returning to what I once was.

In my mourning, I scoured my former girlfriend’s social media pages one last time and discovered that she had remained true to her first love, the father of her daughter. Her Instagram page had a handful of soft messages longing for his return. Without equivocation, I can say that learning of this brought joy to my heart.

I had loved their daughter as my own and I know that she and her mother are both with Christ. This was revealed to me through the Holy Spirit the day both their murders took place. I happen to know of the man who fathered my former girlfriend’s daughter, and he’s turned out to live a decent life. I know in my heart that the two of them will be reunited with him through Christ. Knowing this has given me a degree of solace.

FINAL THOUGHTS
Last August, after thirty-four years of service, I officially resigned my commission with the GCHQ. I also terminated my arrangement with the CIA. Shortly afterward, I shared details of the abuse I suffered at the hands of the man who raised me with my mother. The details included the times he had molested me in my infancy.

I would like to say that this confession brought with it some healing, but it hasn’t. My mother is a firm state of denial over what occurred. She has also glossed over the abuses she suffered of her husband. In effect, the conversations I’ve had with her regarding these matters have been much like speaking with a combative teenager.

From a psychological perspective, my mother’s reaction seems to be a twisted form of Stockholm Syndrome. She’s nearing the end of her life and has guilt over her alcohol dependency during my adolescence and teen years. She is also still together with the man who raised me, and he continues to abuse her.

There is a part of me that would like to rip apart the man who raised me as well as other members of my extended family that abused my mother and me. Nevertheless, I have backed away from my anger and turned these matters over to Christ. That said, I continue to speak with my mother and there are days where my afternoons are filled with prayer and meditation after speaking with her.

A confidant of mine told me recently that people who molest children do so for one of two reasons. Either they were raised that way and they are simply repeating a pattern, or they have a warped belief that the abuse they engage in is a way of conveying love.

With the family members that molested me and raped my mother, I know for a fact that the first explanation isn’t true. While my paternal grandfather was a heavy-handed man and a degenerate gambler, he did not sexually abuse his children. My grandmother never would have allowed it. She was an astute woman, and she would have known if something like that had occurred within her household.

I have no animus or anger toward my mother for her alcoholic behavior. In fact, I am sympathetic to a degree. She happened to love her biological father dearly and he passed away when she was eleven My grandmother remarried shortly afterward to bring a degree of stability to the home and she happened to choose a charming abuser. That set the tone for my mother’s life.

In effect, my mother never matured beyond the age of fifteen. She has always done her best to care for me despite her shortcomings and I love her dearly for that. In contrast, I have little love for the man who raised me nor for my extended family.

A few years back, I asked the man who raised if he believed in Christ. He immediately became confrontational with me and shouted tritely, “I’ll believe in him when I see him!” I have forgiven that man for the abuse he inflicted upon me, but it is my intention to never speak with him again. His heart was hardened long ago.

As for the GCHQ and their exploitation of my upbringing, the fact that they attempted to assassinate me last April after I refused another combat assignment tells you all you need to know. I was no more than a dispensable asset to them for the beginning, and my loyalty was all for naught. After I accepted Christ into my heart, I was useless to them.

The British Crown has little regard for the Magna Carta and the principles of liberty and freedom. It took me more than thirty years to realize this, but it’s true. The same can be said for the powerbrokers that control the American government. Specifically, the Federal Reserve Board and the interests they serve. They, too, have little regard for the Constitution of the United States and the Bill of Rights. Like their British counterparts, the board members of the Federal Reserve and the families they represent believe these documents as no more than window dressing.

Christ warns that “it is easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle, than for a rich person to enter the kingdom of heaven.” (Matthew 19:24) That said, it has been a humiliating experience to realize that the interests I severed for thirty-three-plus years have little or no regard for the Ten Commandments nor for Christ’s teachings. Intrinsically, these were the principles that lured me into the intelligence community in the first place. When the powerbrokers and kingmakers I once served speak publicly of such things, their words are filled with empty platitudes.

“But no one can enter the strong man’s house and plunder his property unless he first ties up the strong man, and then he will plunder his house.
‘Truly I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the sons and daughters of men, and whatever blasphemies they commit; but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin.’”
---Mark 3:27-29

CHRIST TRANSLATES FROM BEAST TO YEAST. CHRIST RETURNITH.

Author: Erik Gagnon - Managing Partner, Chi Rho Consulting

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